should i sae...i believe in fate? or isit a coincidence? i suppose i believe more in fate. now i realise i'm really really really a VERY FORTUNATE girl in this world. i feel glad. glad to be a lucky girl. glad to be safe, to be surrounded by love and 'care showers', glad to be happy everyday, glad to haf a life---a real, meaningful life.
this year...i'm beginning to devote more time to my own spiritual thoughts. my own religion.. it makes me feel more refreshed..more happy. yup. but i'm not saying that i'm very religious now. what i mean is, i'm starting to realise the importance of religions. true ones. that's y they exist till now. that's y their history can be as long as china's, or maybe even longer den that. many times, ppl sae that there's yin yuan guo bao (u reap wat u sow). and sometimes, i'd ask myself wat i had done during my previous life. did i really do a lot of charity or was i also a good person then?? many question marks in my head. at this stage of my life, even though i feel comfortable and glad with wat i already have, i still haf alot of questions in mind. duno..maybe i'm always an inquisitive girl..but more and more questions juz keep popping out of my head. don't u all experience these doubtful moments too?
today i went to ah ma house. then i return home wif mummy and brother by taxi coz it's raining and we had no umbrella, and had to reach home in 15 min time coz daddy wanna go work liao after he eats. so we brought food home for him. and...we waited for some time b4 a taxi came. had to wave my arms VIGOROUSLY kaes...gonna ripped off frm my shoulder liao lahh!! keke..heh heh..(abit exaggerating here..=P) ok..back to topic. we met this taxi-driver who's a vegetarian!! den mummy started asking him about xiu dao all that..someting very similar to ours..den when he said he stay at tampines, i felt quite surprised, coz junhan kor oso stay around there. so i asked him if he noe junhan kor. he say duno lor..so well..but this encounter is really fate. i believe in fate. u readers out there, dun try and rebutt me coz it's from my perspective, kaes? lemme finish my wonderful post here.
yup. even so, i tink...without my hard work, living in this world is also a waste of time. but...my excuses...the devil in my heart is so strong. i feel very tortured whenever i tink of hw...-_-" haiz...but i still hafta do anyway. sometimes i wish i'm a J2..already finished A levels!!! but...'stop daydreaming lahh..sharine..' -_-" everyone seems to be better den me. i feel very sad. disappointed by myself. ashamed by my disastrous performance. and even so, i'm not really working very hard now. even if i wan to work hard, i've no confidence. i'd say to myself that i'll get stuck on another question again...and again...so it sort of weakened my motivation of getting started. sighs...1 year...can i do it? tired...but it's not the time to gif up yet. i still have a long way to go...
Quote for the day:
live's short. do everything as though u're doing it the last time.
