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This blog belongs to Shar! =D

Let me introduce myself. I'm a lady who craves for a simple life, in this complicated world. I love the love that exists in this world. I smile when I experience love, I tear when I'm touched, I daydream when I'm bored. I like things simple, but also deep--the depth of things, very meaningful.

I have love and sunshine bursting out of me. :D
Believe it or not, love always wins.



Hello

Shar! :)
I've survived 21 years!
A Happy Vegetarian!
The Special Leftie.



Loves

Chocolates.
Smiles.
People.
MSN.
ORANGE.Green.Yellow.
Music. KTV.
Movies.
Sports.
Outdoors.
Nature.
Self-growth.
Puzzles.
Math.



UN-Loves

smokers.
boredom.
gloomy atmosphere.
my bad habits/manners.
arguments.



Goals

A BOOKSHELF FULL OF MY FAVE BOOKS!!
Play guitar/piano.
happiness.
good health.
travel around the world.
watch shooting stars.
a better world.

也要用自己的爱感化人心。 (:



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    Wednesday, July 27, 2011

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    "你跟他们不一样!!!…………”was what sounded through the phone last night. Sighs.

    Hurtful words which I've to bear it once again.
    As usual, I didn't say much in this heated conversation, because the more I say, the worse this conversation was going to lead. At these moments, it's best to keep quiet.

    But then it still hurts over and over again.

    The big question mark appeared all over my head again.
    WHY? Why am I so different from others? Just because I'm diagnosed with cancer?
    WHY? Why can't I be like a normal person? Just treat me like a normal person like anyone else. Why can't this be done? I'm perfectly normal and yet she still sees me like a sickly child who should lie in bed and rest all the time (even though she dislikes seeing me being tired or feeling physically painful).

    She has to know one fact.
    There's always two sides to the coin, either I end up living on or I leave this mortal world.
    It's a fact, I've to say, even though the latter will definitely hurt her very much.
    And for both sides of the coin, she needs to understand and prepare herself on how to face it.
    But now that she's hanging on to me so tightly like a super glue, I don't think she even dares to think of the worse.

    Therefore, when the time is right, I will have to talk to her about it.
    This world doesn't last forever, neither do humans like you and I.



    世界因你而美丽 9:46 AM



    Tuesday, July 26, 2011

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    If she continues to be like that, I don't know if she's the one who needs help rather than me.

    I don't wish to create more burden for my own body already.



    世界因你而美丽 2:48 PM



    Friday, July 22, 2011

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    My greatest wish now is to fully recover.

    So that my mum will be able to live her life more normally,
    my dad could focus on his work and sleep more,
    my sister wouldn't have to be too busy,
    my brother need not spend so much energy trying to keep me happy,
    the people around me could stop worrying about me,
    the hospital would have 1 less patient, and that
    I could stop giving people trouble and contribute more to the society.

    I am just not worth giving everyone so much worry and trouble.
    Not worth it, seriously.



    世界因你而美丽 3:57 PM



    Saturday, July 16, 2011

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥



    Almost all the time when I want to blog about something, the ideas just fly away at the moment I stare at the blank "New Post" screen.

    *Blows dust away*

    It's been more than a week ever since I came online, what a major feat! Oh yeah? 'Coz I had a pretty good leg pain experience. Thank God it's nothing serious but only inflammation, and now I'm on the way to complete recovery! :D

    It's a good time to relax and chill from the electronic computer anyway. I wouldn't mind living in the mountains or a place far away from city. It would be nice to live it slow and natural. Yeah~

    So what have I been doing so far during the past week?

    Well... I practically just watched the 大长今Korean drama series the whole day, forgetting about proper sitting posture due to the sores I had to bear when I sit for too long. Oh well, what else could I do? I couldn't stand, sit or sleep properly the whole week just because of the leg inflammation, so I reckoned that I wouldn't be able to focus if I do any reading at all. Must as well just rest, rest, rest. So my one-week life revolved around 大长今and my bed.

    Good life eh?
    No, it's never a good life with such restrictions.
    I couldn't do other things I wanted to do, and to rest the whole day in bed is boring, or even just walk around randomly doesn't take up one whole day, so I was just trying to pass my time away desperately (thank God 大长今helped me greatly), especially with the physical pain that keeps bothering me. After my leg's full recovery, I guess it's time to return to my doctor's for the next jab. Sighs.

    So, that's my life. How does it sound to you?

    When something happens to me, I wish so much to be like another person.
    Just like today, my sister tiredly commented, "I wish I could be like you, Jie, everyday sleeping in bed."
    (huh?!)
    I just replied, "Oh? I'd rather be like you doing housework. You want to try to sleep in pain every night?"

    Great.
    I remember I wanted to rest as much as I could when I was panting from my seemingly-endless packed schedule. Now I hope so much to return to that kind of life again. How ironic this is!

    I suppose I need to learn self-control and self-love, which my dad kept emphasizing yesterday. Running too fast or lazing the time away simply are extremes which I shouldn't continue doing. Taking good care of oneself doesn't seem like an easy-peasy task anymore.



    世界因你而美丽 3:09 PM



    Saturday, July 9, 2011

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    God sends reminders to us through the many things and people around us.

    It's just a matter of whether we're observant or accepting enough to receive His messages, for the purpose of our self-growth.



    世界因你而美丽 11:03 AM



    Thursday, July 7, 2011

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    没有反省的日子,真的很不值得过每一天。



    世界因你而美丽 6:00 PM



    Tuesday, July 5, 2011

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    一直要控制一切的人,是不能够轻易放下的吧。
    也难怪会这么累。



    世界因你而美丽 9:10 AM



    Monday, July 4, 2011

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    What do you do when a friend comes to you and talk about his or her problems?

    Do you immediately dive in to provide counselling and advice for him or her?
    Or do you just listen and hear him or her out?
    Or do you simply ignore your friend totally, thinking "Oh no, not again, I can't be bothered!"?

    Now I'm talking to this same old friend, but she's bringing up similar situations like her past relationship, and having the same attitude at facing this second relationship. I'm already feeling slightly ignorant about wanting to continue the conversation (Option 3), yet at this rate that she continues to ramble on about her issues, I don't know what help she wants from me. Does she want Option 1 or Option 2? I realize I really don't know how to ask her this simple question. She isn't a close friend to me, though, but still, I haven't an idea of how to talk to her like this.

    Communication is easy.
    But, effective communication requires some skill and experiential learning along the way.



    世界因你而美丽 9:38 PM





    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    I just want to sing my lungs out right now.

    Feeling very in-between.
    Happy but sad.
    Relieved but stressed.
    Warm but cold??? No. It's confirmed warm.
    Want to do something else but I still want to finish my work.

    Does anyone of you ever feel this way before?
    How do you resolve this contradiction?
    I think it feels so weird.

    So I just want to sing aloud and don't care everything for a while first.
    Where's my KTV gang? Sigh.



    世界因你而美丽 9:12 PM