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Let me introduce myself. I'm a lady who craves for a simple life, in this complicated world. I love the love that exists in this world. I smile when I experience love, I tear when I'm touched, I daydream when I'm bored. I like things simple, but also deep--the depth of things, very meaningful.

I have love and sunshine bursting out of me. :D
Believe it or not, love always wins.



Hello

Shar! :)
I've survived 21 years!
A Happy Vegetarian!
The Special Leftie.



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Smiles.
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MSN.
ORANGE.Green.Yellow.
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Self-growth.
Puzzles.
Math.



UN-Loves

smokers.
boredom.
gloomy atmosphere.
my bad habits/manners.
arguments.



Goals

A BOOKSHELF FULL OF MY FAVE BOOKS!!
Play guitar/piano.
happiness.
good health.
travel around the world.
watch shooting stars.
a better world.

也要用自己的爱感化人心。 (:



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    Wednesday, October 21, 2009

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    Before I go to sleep, I shall blog something 'light'. hahahaha...

    I felt so good, so touched, so awesome, so wonderful, so hyped-up and so grateful on my 20th birthday.

    Everyone planned and spent so much effort and time just to make sure I have a good 20th birthday. I never knew they would go that far. haha. My facebook flooded with birthday wishes, from before my birthday started until the end of my birthday, and it's still ongoing. Gosh~

    Sms received from loads of people, replied loads of smses too.

    Got many birthday gifts from so many people, be it food, balloon, books, bag, organiser etc. I love all of them!

    THANKS EVERYONE! =D
    Pictures will be uploaded later, preferably a few memorable ones here, and all of them in facebook! haha.. I can't help but think that facebook is just so convenient. =P

    And one thing I can't forget, is that I did something for the first time in my life on my 20th birthday:
    I ATE 4 BIRTHDAY CAKES WITHIN 24 HOURS AND BLEW 8 CANDLES ALTOGETHER.



    世界因你而美丽 1:02 AM



    Wednesday, October 14, 2009

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    I just want to take this time to thank everyone of you. I felt so loved last night, the day before, the past week and so on...

    It's always me who takes everything for granted.
    It's just so ignorant of me at times.

    I love each and everyone of you.
    Brothers, sisters, friends...

    My family?
    I'll give them my hugs.
    hahaha. ^_-

    I shall continue to smile!!! =D



    世界因你而美丽 10:25 AM



    Friday, October 9, 2009

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    How do you feel when you look into a stranger's eyes for 5 minutes without turning your eyes away? How do you feel? Tell yourself about it.


    For me, it was one of the scariest thing I've ever done in my whole life.
    And, I've finally cried.
    Unexpectedly.
    Caught myself by surprise.
    But, it's a good sign.


    I've been embarking on a course these few days, and will still be ongoing until next week.
    The experiential learning was awesome. It made me so much more aware of myself.

    Although these are just small steps of taking risks, they all have a huge impact in my life.

    I cried.
    But I felt I hadn't really allowed myself to do it fully then. I still felt afraid, I felt restricted.
    What was stopping me from letting go? Because of self-image? I actually told myself that I hadn't wanted to disrupt others in the room as well. Was it really because of this?

    I haven't really convinced myself with an answer.
    But one thing's for sure, the greatest concern in my life is my parents. I've known it so long ago, but I wasn't even aware of it before that.

    Right now, I just need her to be by my side. My greatest supporter for this course, my school work and my personal life. You know who you are. I feel so lucky to have you be part of my life. *loves* :)



    世界因你而美丽 1:42 AM



    Thursday, October 8, 2009

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    It sucks being scolded by my mum for 2 consecutive days.

    It just sucks.

    She raised at the top of her voice.
    If I utter a single word, I'd be adding oil to fire.
    If I don't, she'd raise her voice even higher to the extreme, and then suddenly go silent after receiving no replies because she might be feeling weird shouting to herself. ha!
    And that's what I learnt, just shut up. No matter how awful I feel or how eager I want to talk back and state my stand, I just have to shut up and ignore.

    Sometimes, I just wish I could be alone at home.
    I need peace, especially when I just woke up in the morning.
    Therefore, night times are the best, when everyone's asleep.
    So Daddy, please understand why I usually sleep so late at night.



    世界因你而美丽 9:43 AM



    Monday, October 5, 2009

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    This morning when I woke up to brush my teeth, a question popped into my mind:

    Had I bathed yesterday?

    o.0
    Diao!!
    What was I thinking?!

    For your information, I did bathe yesterday, yes.



    世界因你而美丽 12:36 PM



    Sunday, October 4, 2009

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    I'm starting to do serious reflection on myself every now and then, recently, which is a very good thing. I feel more spiritual, more positive. I like that!

    For your information, "spiritual" doesn't mean "religious".

    I'm starting to think more about the people I've not been in contact with for a while. I had been resting in my nest over the past few weeks, or even months, because it's just so tiring to go out socialising and catching up with my dear friends every now and then, as I've got so many of them whom I care so much about.

    Now, I realised I cannot be so selfish. I need to learn how to manage my own work and spend time with my dearests. I'm sure I can do it. :)

    You know... Gaining happiness doesn't really have to seek from going shopping, hanging out with friends or doing the wildest thing which you've never done in your life.

    I believe, that genuine happiness comes from deep within ourselves.
    :)

    How? Through doing self-reflection, changing yourself instead of requesting others to change for you. How can they change for you if you can't even change yourself?

    I came across a quote:
    "Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself." --Leo Tolstoy
    ...
    and it makes me think of this quote:
    "You must be the change you see in the world." --Mahatma Gandhi

    We have to start the change from ourselves, to be role models for others to change too.
    That is how we are able to change the world, for the better. :)


    Changing the world for the better is part of what I see my role as.
    That's why the above quotes gave me an impact. Their words "sound" strongly in my ears.
    This is because we are all different individuals who've different backgrounds.
    God only give us challenges which we need.
    上帝给你的考验一定是你最需要的。
    We need not hide away from it, or from God.
    Instead, we have to trust God, and trust ourselves that we can do it, as long as we want to. :)


    All these, are all I've always wanted to share to everyone.
    Currently, I'm still changing, evolving, molding myself.
    Undergoing the change process... still learning, and wanting to learn more.



    世界因你而美丽 10:57 PM



    Friday, October 2, 2009

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    I dreamt of a very horrifying scene during the past few nights ago. I only have the time to update my blog about it now...

    I can't really remember what happened before that, so I'll just go straight to the point.

    Here goes:
    It was during the peak hours after my lessons ended. I was waiting for the MRT train to arrive while waiting at Clementi MRT Station as usual, one of my frequent "hangouts". However, this time round, I had a very foreboding feeling that something wasn't very right, but I didn't have adequate time to think much about it.

    When the train finally arrived, it came at a very fast speed, faster than usual. I was quite stunned. The next thing I realized, the half-end of the train didn't land properly on the tracks. Instead, the whole train just slanted outwards of the tracks!

    OK, we all know that Clementi MRT Station platform is two-storeys high, right?

    So when the rear part of the train slanted outwards, I was already very shocked. The worst part was... when the train doors opened!

    You can imagine how packed like sardines the train was! OH MY GOODNESS!!!

    When the doors opened, I was already holding on to my breath, not wanting to see anymore tragic happening. I wanted to turn away because I didn't know what I could or had to do. Basically, the people on the platform were just like me, staring in horror and screaming their hearts out. The commuters in the train were trying very hard to squeeze further into the train so that they won't fall out. Just then, I saw a man diving out from one of the back doors...

    And this was when I woke up with a start. My heart was thumping like madness, I was gasping for breath, and I even made some crying sounds even though I didn't cry. It was those sounds which sounded as though something very bad was immediately going to happen to me and I didn't want it to happen at all. I lied in my bed, curled up like a helpless baby.

    Luckily, it was not daylight yet. I still had some time to recover and sleep.

    For the man, I didn't know why he did that. Maybe he knew that he wouldn't have a chance to survive anymore, so he'd rather end it quickly. It makes me think about the 911 WTC incident when a few chose to jump down from the tall building instead of wanting to be burnt to death alive.

    Recollecting this dream makes me shiver.



    世界因你而美丽 10:30 AM