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This blog belongs to Shar! =D

Let me introduce myself. I'm a lady who craves for a simple life, in this complicated world. I love the love that exists in this world. I smile when I experience love, I tear when I'm touched, I daydream when I'm bored. I like things simple, but also deep--the depth of things, very meaningful.

I have love and sunshine bursting out of me. :D
Believe it or not, love always wins.



Hello

Shar! :)
I've survived 21 years!
A Happy Vegetarian!
The Special Leftie.



Loves

Chocolates.
Smiles.
People.
MSN.
ORANGE.Green.Yellow.
Music. KTV.
Movies.
Sports.
Outdoors.
Nature.
Self-growth.
Puzzles.
Math.



UN-Loves

smokers.
boredom.
gloomy atmosphere.
my bad habits/manners.
arguments.



Goals

A BOOKSHELF FULL OF MY FAVE BOOKS!!
Play guitar/piano.
happiness.
good health.
travel around the world.
watch shooting stars.
a better world.

也要用自己的爱感化人心。 (:



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    Friday, July 31, 2009

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    I had another dream this morning.........

    I was being match-maked. WAHAHAHA~
    Before you say anything, read on first.

    I remembered the dream was something like, I had to marry to a 30+++ year old horrible, terrible, vegetable guy! I also don't know why I was match-make to him. I felt very anxious about running away before the wedding started. My mum was also supportive of me, and she'd also escape with me, far away from the guy and his family. Why? Because they seemed very EVIL. I think we're afraid that he'd abuse me. When I woke up, I realised I'm still safe, and free.

    And also single and available.


    HA HA HA.



    世界因你而美丽 10:06 PM



    Tuesday, July 28, 2009

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    I had an exciting 2-hr dream this morning...

    I was with my brother, and he was competing with his friends in a game about some ships.
    The ship sank, 'coz I tried to help my brother rescue it but I failed. =x

    Suddenly, we're all on board the ship. (And I dunno why!)
    We had huge floats and boats to get everyone on board. I wanted to help my brother and also to save my face because I was not happy with being laughed at by my brother's friends as well as seeing my brother giving me that unhappy look that said "You see lah! What have you done this time?". I was trying so hard to get water out of the ship but the wind was soooooooo strong when I tried to heave the water pail upwards, so I gave up in the end...

    I tried calling everyone to go onboard the floats and boats...

    The water was so deep...

    Everywhere was so chaotic...

    And my alarm started to ring...

    I awoke with a start, and my heart pumping real fast.
    I was panting.

    Dreams are so real, and I thought I wanted the ending to be:
    passengers are all onboard and safe, making their way back to safe land.
    Everyone is safe and sound in the end.
    My brother and his friends are fine too, not feeling bad or laughing their heads off anymore.

    I don't know why I had this dream anyway.
    My subconscious level must be wanting to show my conscious level something.
    That I'm afraid of being joked at?
    That I'm scared to lose face?
    That I want to be a someone who's being loved and accepted?



    世界因你而美丽 9:45 AM



    Saturday, July 25, 2009

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    Today is Saturday, and it really feels weird to be at home.
    My feet itched to go out and play.

    Funny, 'coz when I'm so busy out away from home during the last few months, I wished to stay indoors.
    Right now, I wish to go outdoors. I really need a break from the routine work I'm doing--typing out the 2500 word essay which I'm supposed to submit 1 week later.

    ARGH!



    世界因你而美丽 5:58 PM



    Thursday, July 23, 2009

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    I think I'm in no position to volunteer at all.

    At first, I wanted to volunteer in Children Society or anywhere involving children.

    But with one condition:
    The place has to be located near my place.

    I don't want a tuition volunteer work because I'm giving tuition now so I want to try something new.

    So I tried to surf around for places where I could volunteer my services...

    To no avail.

    I searched until I feel very, very pekcek already..

    So do you think I'm still qualified to be a volunteer? Such an attitude is very shallow... haiz.

    I need to stop thinking about volunteering for now.



    世界因你而美丽 4:20 PM



    Sunday, July 19, 2009

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    Being truthful is always good. :)



    世界因你而美丽 9:41 PM



    Thursday, July 16, 2009

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    These few days, I've been wondering...
    What role do I play in my life?

    As an individual, I am maybe just one of the statistics in the Singapore population.
    I may be a young lady who is still trying to outgrow from the teenage era.

    As a family member, I am the eldest daughter who has to play a part in looking after the whole family, be it housework, financial support, etc. etc. I am also the eldest sister who has to take care of 2 monkeys--my sister and brother.

    As a student, I am a Year 1 going Year 2 student of NUS, the school renowned for its good reputation internationally. I am an exco of one of the CCAs in NUS. I am... a student just like the rest.

    As a tuition teacher, my role is to inspire my kids so that they're motivated to learn. It's not as easy as it seems, because inspiring people needs that X-factor and engagement to proceed. Every student needs their own unique X to become inspired. You can't just inspire all of them with the same one sentence, because everyone's needs are different. I also see this role as a stepping stone to the future generation of Singapore-makers.

    As a friend, I see my role as a companion, an entertainer, a mediator and a helper:
    A companion who stays by your side when you're feeling low, or high, or medium.
    An entertainer who builds a light-hearted atmosphere and cracks you up at times.
    A mediator who restores broken relationships between friends and people.
    A helper who tries her best to lend you a helping hand whenever she can, whenever you need.

    As a believer of the Truth,
    I see myself as the spreader, not the virus, but the Truth.
    This role, therefore, is the most important.
    Ironically, I've not fulfilled it very much.

    As you can see, everyone of us play so many different roles in our one and only life that we have. Now, our role in life is to be responsible of all the different roles that we play and also to play them well.



    世界因你而美丽 10:21 PM



    Monday, July 13, 2009

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    I was really feeling very low today, which was very terrible for me.
    I'm not a person who hides feelings, but today was unusual for me. I hid it away from everyone else.
    Except for someone, I suppose?

    I don't even know why I was so straightforward about such things. It had been so sensitive to me, and I had thought that being open to such things would be good. I had learnt from counselling... It was a good thing, but because I don't know how to respond after that, plus I wasn't even sure about my own self, so who am I to say all these? Maybe it was just me trying to vent out my penned up feelings. So now after saying it out, I felt so low... So stupid and silly... So foolishly low......

    It's really easy to change my mindset and tell myself that I'm fine,
    but at the same time, it's hard.
    I feel that I'm always forcing myself not to love.
    Because of many reasons...........................................
    I was scared.......................................
    I have to love myself, in order to love others.




    Denial.
    I still cannot believe that I haven't accepted myself fully.



    世界因你而美丽 11:31 PM



    Sunday, July 12, 2009

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    I've been reading the book "Tuesdays with Morrie" over the past week.

    Now, I'm stopped at the twelfth Tuesday.


    It's an awesome book.
    I'll contain my excitement and whatever intense feelings I have here after reading the book, because I hope that these feelings would not go away too quickly. I want to let them settle down within me, touch my deeper self, and then fade away slowly...
    It's a book which you cannot read too fast, or too slowly.

    I've learnt so much from this book.
    I'm sure many people have learnt as much too.

    A "Teacher to the Last" indeed.

    I hope I can get this wonderful book.



    世界因你而美丽 9:58 PM



    Wednesday, July 8, 2009

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    时间还过得真快~ 回想一下,在过去的几个月就已经发生了不少事情……
    有时候还不清楚我要表达的是什么,但是就是很想于华文来表达。
    因为华文生动又有内涵。真庆幸我是个华人。(eh... no offence intended here.)


    总之,我最近是真的比较忙,所以需要牺牲一些和好朋友和家人的时间。我也不希望是这个样子的。有时候,我好挂念他们……也许你会觉得莫名其妙,可是由于相处的时间不长,长时间在一起有时候也没有沟通很多,结果造成无缘无故的“挂念”。 -.-"

    最令我感到无比快乐的是我这两位朋友……

    Thanks for entering my life.




    世界因你而美丽 11:16 PM



    Wednesday, July 1, 2009

    rainbow of fruits♥ ♥

    It is going 8 weeks ever since I started Social Work Field Placement 1.

    I've learnt so much about individual couselling, family counselling, group work and many more! It's a really good experience to get my supervisor to counsel me individual and in groups. It was cool... I got to spill out my personal issues which are hidden and chucked aside deep down within me that it took quite some time for me to reveal through the use of Expressive Art Therapy.

    I learnt about grief issues, about elderly issues (mainly the emotional and psychological aspects), about how a person cope with their own problems and about how each individual has their unique way of expressing themselves such as crying out loud when dealing with grief.

    I don't believe that a person is fine because he/she said so.
    After a loved one is lost, one would grief. It takes some time for the wound to heal... Different people take different time to heal, just like different teenagers take different time to go through puberty. We all have different biological clocks in our body.

    Non-verbal behaviour is the loudest.
    Knowing that one isn't fine but said so, by looking at their behaviour (maybe remaining very anti-social, withdrawing from normal daily activities etc.) would show the people around him/her that he/she is not fine at all.

    To deal with grief isn't easy.
    I would say it's the hardest thing ever to feel the pain again.
    Even I don't even dare to do so.
    But it is not impossible, as long as we're ready to accept the pain again.
    When one feels the pain again, understands it, and accepts it totally, he/she would then be able to be more aware of the issue and let go of it after that.
    This process of healing would take quite some time................

    And to my loved one, I pray for you.



    世界因你而美丽 10:50 PM